Had enough

I am so frustrated and tired tonight. My heart aches because I have been angry all day and hate to carry that anger around with me. I am trying to let it go... deep breaths... heaven knows I have to do this a lot. No, it's not my children thank heavens. I don't air problems on such a public place but let's just say that my in-laws are a very difficult challenge in my life... specifically a select few of the women in the family. Things have been said lately that make me hurt and angry and I didn't do anything to deserve it. Nothing. Nada. I've bit my tongue for 7 1/2 years now and will continue to do so out of respect for my *husband* and him alone. I have also decided that there is no obligation to keep dragging my children back to them to see family that wants to tear me down. They won't be seeing my children for a while, not because I am mean but because this is all I can think of to do so they won't try to teach my children that mommy is a monster... something I certainly am not. They say such horrible things about me, lies that aren't true, things that aren't necessary and claim things that really hurt when I try so hard to not cause problems. I just am done, I don't quit but I have decided it's enough and if this is the only way I can stand up for myself then so be it. Heaven knows how hard it is for me to *not* stand up for myself... ugh... so for now my focus is where it should be, on my husband and beautiful children who LOVE me.