Ramblings

I feel like I should be sad... I should be overwhelmed or frustrated. I have to admit that I am in fact on prozac... depression started after Ariana's birth 5 years ago and we are now looking at my thyroid to see if this can be solved. Until then I'm on a very low dose of prozac.

My great-grandmother died peacefully this morning. She was 92 and when I saw her 2 days ago we knew she was dying. She was a strong and amazing woman who would curse like a sailor (lol sorry Grandma) and was fiesty as can be. She loved her family though and loved the grandchildren and great-grandchildren and even the great-great-grandchildren. (lol.) She will be missed but she was so miserable at the end of her life that none of us can be too upset that she's finally happy. She's finally at peace and we look forward to seeing her someday but know she's up there with others we've lost and loved.

Her memorial will be on Monday. On Tuesday I get a biopsy on my thyroid... not thrilled but anxious to have this over with. I am also waiting on two fillings (I hate those) and Alex will be getting a sedated MRI here soon as well. Then beginning of August Alex will be in 1st grade and I'm just so nervous about that... he's supposed to get some aides for school but whether they happen right away is to be seen. I am nervous she will be someone we don't like so praying that it works out okay...

I should be sad... crushed... but I'm doing okay. I claim it's the medicine I'm on and that's most of it. :) I also know that Great-Grandma Vera is happy finally... finally free from that body that was no longer working. She's probably giving them heck for not letting her come sooner like she wanted. roflol.

That's what's on my mind today... just a lot that I am taking one day at a time.

Happy 4th of July

I hope you all had a great weekend! We had a nice time last night with my parents and sister... nothing big (unfortunately) but I also didn't feel good so it worked out okay. The kids were loud at church but that was partly because my dad came and sat with us (lol). Oh well... it wasn't bad.
Today my heart is sad though so I thought why not blog. :) My great-grandmother is 92 years old and is dying... it's hard to watch. She's wanted to 'go' for a while but it just wasn't her time and we were happy to keep her around. The last few days she's gone down-hill quickly. Today we made a trip down to see her and my grandparents (who were visiting from out of town to see her). The kids had a blast because my great-aunt (who's house we were at) has a pool. Needless to say the adults didn't have quite as much fun. lol. It hurt to see her laying there, frail, sick... it was just so hard to see someone you love suffering. We're all ready to let her stop hurting but it still hurts my heart. The spirit was strong there around her... I've never been in a situation like that and it's definitely something I'll remember... I sure love her and hope her pain will soon end.
On happier news I got some great photos of the kids today. Wanted to share them with you. :)