It's been a little while... just a little. lol. I've been doing my "business" blog but not personal so I figured I better do it tonight.
Things are going here... going good and bad. roflol. My family is fine, just the normal trials the Lord helps us through and some days we end up feeling crazy. Camden is great and growing like mad, that kid is so solid compared to the light weights that his brother and sister are. Not fat at all, just really insanely tall. Sheesh, wonder where he gets that from! :) He's loved being home with me this year while Ariana was in preschool and Alex in K and I've really enjoyed it too. He's so insanely smart too and we laugh, he's learning to read letters and numbers right along with the other two and will be well on his way when school finally rolls around. He will be 3 in August but acts like he's bigger sometimes... makes me miss that baby... let's keep him at 2 for a while.
Ariana loves school and has done so well in Preschool. They are finished soon but she's really loved it and loves her friend Heidi from class (they hit it off the first day). She just turned 5 and had a cute Princess tea party birthday with a couple of friends. (2 friends from church and her cousin Deanna). She had a great time and I just laugh at the things she says and does. She's always drawing, this girl loves anything art. She is dressing up all the time too and is very opinionated about her hair. She's still a little princess and we like that, she's not in a hurry to grow up too quickly and we like it that way.
Alex is 6 and doing well also. He has struggled with Kindergarten but more in the fine motor area. Writing has been a real struggle and so have site words but he's getting them and ready to move on to first grade this fall. We're working hard to get him help he needs and he has been approved that they need an aide for him for school. We won't allow him to be put into "special day" class but he does need some help. He has his sensory issues and with everything going on around him he'd get too distracted and get left behind in 1st grade. We have his teacher requested (principal has approved thanks to his IEP carrier...) I'm anxious of course, 1st grade intimidates me with him being so small and thrown in with all the big kids. Thankfully all of the office staff and most teachers of the younger grades know who Alex is so he shouldn't be too bad (that kid talks to everyone!!!)
Ray is good, almost done with work and got a few more weeks after that of college. He'll start his "thesis" this fall... big relief for me and I'm more than DONE with him in college (10 years now with being married in college... well 10 years married in September). Somehow we've survived but it's time... lol.
I am hanging in there. I'm on a low dose of Prozac and hating the side effects. Been on it almost a year now and I just really need to see if there is another one that doesn't react quite like this one since I'll be on it for a while longer. It's just no fun... although better than PPD it's still not fun feeling nauseated, exhausted, and forgetful all the time. There is of course other things that I go through but they aren't as regular as those three. lol. I'm hanging in there though, fighting to get Alex what he needs and trying to take care of myself in all of this mess.
I am going to take Alex in for a physical here on Tuesday and then see the ENT for myself on Friday. I have a nodule on my thyroid that they want to biopsy and make sure they don't need to worry about cancer. Never a fun thing (hello, they want to stick a needle in me... freaks me out!) I will get that set up Friday... it's been known since Feb so this wait has been really frustrating. I also have Alex seeing the Neurologist next week... lots of fun goodies coming up.
So that's what's on our plates right now. It will be 2 years in June that I got baby hungry and started trying for another child and, well, obviously the Lord has other plans. I hate the trial of patience sometimes. lol.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Monday, December 21, 2009
I'm in the spotlight!!!
Okay, I've been SO excited about this for a while now... I am a spotlight designer at The Daily Digi today! Go check it out, snag a coupon from me, and even see what I donated to their grab bag (which is amazing!)
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Monday, November 23, 2009
Thinking
Sorry I haven't posted in... well... forever. I've had a lot to think about and didn't know how to put it into writing. It's not bad, it's actually good. (No, not pregnant). lol.
The kids are doing well. Alex is really enjoying school although I still have my concerns. I don't get the feeling that his teacher likes him much but I think she's just over-worked and he's getting lost. He gets speech four days a week and OT once a week and they both just adore him. He has friends and enjoys playing. He's also writing his name and doing well with trying although with his Sensory Processing Disorder (recently diagnosed finally) he's too distracted by everything going on around him and he gets lost. I am debating whether this is going to be a real problem but he needs to be where he is. Time will tell how well he's doing, he's writing at least!!! SO proud of him!
Ariana is good too, she's in Preschool and LOVES it. She's smart as can be, they wanted to have her tested for intelligence apparently (because she gets so bored in class, she gets her work done so quickly). We just think she's a smarty pants and will LOVE Kindergarten when her turn comes. All in time... let's not get her too quickly into school here. She has made friends and is so chatty, it's been great for her.
Camden is good too, he really enjoys time with mommy in the mornings when everyone is at school. He's so cute and also very smart. He's counting to 12 on his own and can talk your ear off about things you didn't realize he understood. He's also the size of a three year old, so insanely tall. Ariana is too, she's gotten taller than Alexander now. So funny!
I'm good, gone through a lot of changes the last few months. First I started that Prozac in June of this year. 2 months later I went back and talked to the doctor, adjusted the dose slightly (it's still a really low dose), and made a plan. I have to remain on it for 6 months, at which point they will let me go off the prozac (assuming I feel good) and then we can be referred to a Fertility doctor for our problems getting pregnant. SO nervous about that but I love to have a plan. So February I go in and we start taking me off the medicine. I am feeling REALLY good btw and am grateful for modern medicine. :)
I've thought about it recently and realized that the last two years I had become more and more dulled to the spirit thanks to the depression I wasn't realizing I was battling. I was more and more not feeling it when I wanted so desperately too and more and more was having thoughts in my head that didn't belong and I didn't want them to. I knew I wasn't alone and wasn't a really depressed state but knew something was off, I was tired of being so moody, and really needed something to make it stop. Satan sure does have a way to get to us and knows our weaknesses so well, I look back now and am grateful I had help getting through that (not only from loved ones but people on the other side of the veil helping me I'm sure).
I am so happy to say that I feel the Spirit a LOT now and it's really such a comforting feeling. I did feel it before but now that my hormones are mellowed out and I'm happier I can finally feel that again. I love it so much and really missed it... I know it sounds silly but it's really such a relief to me.
I know this will seem arrogant but I know that Satan is especially mad that Ray and I are together. It's been something I've felt from the beginning, that Satan hates that we are together. Weird I know. He hates it though because we are happy... we love each other... and we have very amazing and strong children who are going to someday be amazing missionaries (well, they are already to be honest). He tries so hard to break us, he wants so badly for my family to not be a family. I really do feel that, it angers him that Ray and I are not only doing what we are supposed to but somehow our family is going to do great things and he doesn't want that. We were told in a blessing once that Ray and I were together before the world was ever created and that was such a beautiful insight to me... to think that we were supposed to do what we are doing right now (same as everyone on the earth at this moment, we all have a special plan). It just really is so sweet.
So that's my rambling for tonight, if you think I'm crazy well... okay. lol. I hope you are all doing well and Happy Thanksgiving!
The kids are doing well. Alex is really enjoying school although I still have my concerns. I don't get the feeling that his teacher likes him much but I think she's just over-worked and he's getting lost. He gets speech four days a week and OT once a week and they both just adore him. He has friends and enjoys playing. He's also writing his name and doing well with trying although with his Sensory Processing Disorder (recently diagnosed finally) he's too distracted by everything going on around him and he gets lost. I am debating whether this is going to be a real problem but he needs to be where he is. Time will tell how well he's doing, he's writing at least!!! SO proud of him!
Ariana is good too, she's in Preschool and LOVES it. She's smart as can be, they wanted to have her tested for intelligence apparently (because she gets so bored in class, she gets her work done so quickly). We just think she's a smarty pants and will LOVE Kindergarten when her turn comes. All in time... let's not get her too quickly into school here. She has made friends and is so chatty, it's been great for her.
Camden is good too, he really enjoys time with mommy in the mornings when everyone is at school. He's so cute and also very smart. He's counting to 12 on his own and can talk your ear off about things you didn't realize he understood. He's also the size of a three year old, so insanely tall. Ariana is too, she's gotten taller than Alexander now. So funny!
I'm good, gone through a lot of changes the last few months. First I started that Prozac in June of this year. 2 months later I went back and talked to the doctor, adjusted the dose slightly (it's still a really low dose), and made a plan. I have to remain on it for 6 months, at which point they will let me go off the prozac (assuming I feel good) and then we can be referred to a Fertility doctor for our problems getting pregnant. SO nervous about that but I love to have a plan. So February I go in and we start taking me off the medicine. I am feeling REALLY good btw and am grateful for modern medicine. :)
I've thought about it recently and realized that the last two years I had become more and more dulled to the spirit thanks to the depression I wasn't realizing I was battling. I was more and more not feeling it when I wanted so desperately too and more and more was having thoughts in my head that didn't belong and I didn't want them to. I knew I wasn't alone and wasn't a really depressed state but knew something was off, I was tired of being so moody, and really needed something to make it stop. Satan sure does have a way to get to us and knows our weaknesses so well, I look back now and am grateful I had help getting through that (not only from loved ones but people on the other side of the veil helping me I'm sure).
I am so happy to say that I feel the Spirit a LOT now and it's really such a comforting feeling. I did feel it before but now that my hormones are mellowed out and I'm happier I can finally feel that again. I love it so much and really missed it... I know it sounds silly but it's really such a relief to me.
I know this will seem arrogant but I know that Satan is especially mad that Ray and I are together. It's been something I've felt from the beginning, that Satan hates that we are together. Weird I know. He hates it though because we are happy... we love each other... and we have very amazing and strong children who are going to someday be amazing missionaries (well, they are already to be honest). He tries so hard to break us, he wants so badly for my family to not be a family. I really do feel that, it angers him that Ray and I are not only doing what we are supposed to but somehow our family is going to do great things and he doesn't want that. We were told in a blessing once that Ray and I were together before the world was ever created and that was such a beautiful insight to me... to think that we were supposed to do what we are doing right now (same as everyone on the earth at this moment, we all have a special plan). It just really is so sweet.
So that's my rambling for tonight, if you think I'm crazy well... okay. lol. I hope you are all doing well and Happy Thanksgiving!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Update on family
We are doing great! Sorry if this post is boring by the way. lol.
Camden is doing well, he's talking like a MAD man and is just so smart, this kid blows me away. He talks in sentences, counts to 5, and loves the color yellow. He's so sweet and loves his brother and sister being at school for mommy time where he can chatter my ear off but once it's time to get them from school he runs to the car so we can get there faster. Such a cutie. He knows he's the baby but that doesn't slow him down on his development thankfully. He isn't potty training yet but is so anal about dirty hands, makes him crazy! We offer and he's sat on it several times but it's just not time yet and I'm not about to push him. Shoot, no way dude am I doing that with him! lol. He just turned 2 and is the height of a 3 year old... and no I'm not kidding. His weight is fine, he's average on that, but his height is off the charts. No one believes that he just had his 2nd birthday... makes me laugh actually.
Ariana is really enjoying preschool. She has a new "best friend" every week it seems and loves the other girls in her class. She's a joy to them and is so smart, we love watching her blossom. We had a few meltdowns recently because her schedule was off due to holidays and missing school from smoke but she's getting back into the swing of it and loving it all. She's such a good girl. Now if only we could get her to stop sucking her thumb, arguing with me about what she wears every day (she's always had an opinion about her clothes, since she was a year I think it was that it started). Her hair looks crazy too, trying to decide what to do with that problem... got to love it!
Alexander, well, he's the reason I am doing this post. :) First off he loves school. He makes friends easily and really thinks it's just a blast to be there. Thank goodness! No one is mean to him in Kindergarten, why does that have to change as they get older I ask you. Oh well, we'll enjoy this stage now. We have been watching him though, that boy is so active and really a problem at school. He fidgets a lot, talks a lot, and stimulation distracts him. We had an IEP meeting today and have settled on the idea that he most likely has ADD. This is a relief to me because we know this runs in both families and can be worked with. My worst fear was more severe... glad I had it wrong actually. We knew he had a problem paying attention and this is finally getting adressed, whew! Still digesting a lot of the meeting tonight actually. We will start his Speech program on Monday and will meet with Occupational Therapy soon to learn what the plan is with that and what we can do at home to help him. He did OT when he was really young but was discharged when he was almost 3 (I think) and hasn't been seen since. The last year we've really pushed to get him back into an OT program but were denied, told that he can't until he's in Kindergarten. We've been patient enough and here we are, getting that taken care of finally and I couldn't be more happy!
We will be meeting with a Gastro intersomethingoranother soon... (GI doctor... digestion... etc). They will be checking that there isn't some weird blockage or anything going on and that he's digesting well since he's always had bowel problems. I don't honestly think they'll find anything and am determined to find a doctor that will look at the BIG PICTURE instead of picking on little things and making him go through tests that aren't necessary. Mothers instinct here... trust it already!
We also are still fighting to get him that juice he needed. It's high calorie, high protein, and totally amazing. If the insurance denies it again I'll have to keep fighting and go higher up and see what they will do for me. I'm willing to kick, scream, anything I have to in order to get that big red "failure to thrive" on his chart and get my kid that darn juice. Grr... don't mess with me.
I also am going to have them do an ultrasound or x-ray on his spinal cord. He had this checked at 9 months of age but he was maybe 10 lbs at that time? Teeny little thing, had to have an iv and sedation, it was awful! I think he was too small at the time and want a less invasive way to look at the same thing they were trying to check, is his spinal cord tethered? That would cause his in-ability to potty train and his uncle (Ray's brother) had this condition since birth and it was not diagnosed until high school. Long time to wear diapers dude and I'm not going to do it.
Ray and I are good, I'm digesting this still like I said and trying to figure out our next plan of action. All I can do is pray and hope that we are given the answers as we need them like we have so far.
Thanks for your thoughts and prayers, we are really hoping to see a big improvement in Alexander this year. :)
Camden is doing well, he's talking like a MAD man and is just so smart, this kid blows me away. He talks in sentences, counts to 5, and loves the color yellow. He's so sweet and loves his brother and sister being at school for mommy time where he can chatter my ear off but once it's time to get them from school he runs to the car so we can get there faster. Such a cutie. He knows he's the baby but that doesn't slow him down on his development thankfully. He isn't potty training yet but is so anal about dirty hands, makes him crazy! We offer and he's sat on it several times but it's just not time yet and I'm not about to push him. Shoot, no way dude am I doing that with him! lol. He just turned 2 and is the height of a 3 year old... and no I'm not kidding. His weight is fine, he's average on that, but his height is off the charts. No one believes that he just had his 2nd birthday... makes me laugh actually.
Ariana is really enjoying preschool. She has a new "best friend" every week it seems and loves the other girls in her class. She's a joy to them and is so smart, we love watching her blossom. We had a few meltdowns recently because her schedule was off due to holidays and missing school from smoke but she's getting back into the swing of it and loving it all. She's such a good girl. Now if only we could get her to stop sucking her thumb, arguing with me about what she wears every day (she's always had an opinion about her clothes, since she was a year I think it was that it started). Her hair looks crazy too, trying to decide what to do with that problem... got to love it!
Alexander, well, he's the reason I am doing this post. :) First off he loves school. He makes friends easily and really thinks it's just a blast to be there. Thank goodness! No one is mean to him in Kindergarten, why does that have to change as they get older I ask you. Oh well, we'll enjoy this stage now. We have been watching him though, that boy is so active and really a problem at school. He fidgets a lot, talks a lot, and stimulation distracts him. We had an IEP meeting today and have settled on the idea that he most likely has ADD. This is a relief to me because we know this runs in both families and can be worked with. My worst fear was more severe... glad I had it wrong actually. We knew he had a problem paying attention and this is finally getting adressed, whew! Still digesting a lot of the meeting tonight actually. We will start his Speech program on Monday and will meet with Occupational Therapy soon to learn what the plan is with that and what we can do at home to help him. He did OT when he was really young but was discharged when he was almost 3 (I think) and hasn't been seen since. The last year we've really pushed to get him back into an OT program but were denied, told that he can't until he's in Kindergarten. We've been patient enough and here we are, getting that taken care of finally and I couldn't be more happy!
We will be meeting with a Gastro intersomethingoranother soon... (GI doctor... digestion... etc). They will be checking that there isn't some weird blockage or anything going on and that he's digesting well since he's always had bowel problems. I don't honestly think they'll find anything and am determined to find a doctor that will look at the BIG PICTURE instead of picking on little things and making him go through tests that aren't necessary. Mothers instinct here... trust it already!
We also are still fighting to get him that juice he needed. It's high calorie, high protein, and totally amazing. If the insurance denies it again I'll have to keep fighting and go higher up and see what they will do for me. I'm willing to kick, scream, anything I have to in order to get that big red "failure to thrive" on his chart and get my kid that darn juice. Grr... don't mess with me.
I also am going to have them do an ultrasound or x-ray on his spinal cord. He had this checked at 9 months of age but he was maybe 10 lbs at that time? Teeny little thing, had to have an iv and sedation, it was awful! I think he was too small at the time and want a less invasive way to look at the same thing they were trying to check, is his spinal cord tethered? That would cause his in-ability to potty train and his uncle (Ray's brother) had this condition since birth and it was not diagnosed until high school. Long time to wear diapers dude and I'm not going to do it.
Ray and I are good, I'm digesting this still like I said and trying to figure out our next plan of action. All I can do is pray and hope that we are given the answers as we need them like we have so far.
Thanks for your thoughts and prayers, we are really hoping to see a big improvement in Alexander this year. :)
Friday, August 21, 2009
We love you Daniel
Well tonight was *the* night we had to say goodbye to my brother Daniel. He's going on his mission to Chile (speaking Spanish) and he leaves tomorrow morning for Utah, reports Wed Aug 26 to the MTC. We are so thrilled that he's doing this and know that it will be an amazing experience. Not at first maybe but he'll learn and grow so much. We look forward to all the crazy stories and hearing about the amazing people he met and loves. (We also look forward to the not so many people he couldn't stand). lol.
It was a good night. We had him set apart and it was a beautiful blessing. We came home for a small birthday party for Camden (he's 2 on Monday, Aug 24) and opened presents. When it was finally time to say goodbye the kids were not paying much attention thanks to the new toys. When Daniel started crying we all started up and, well, the kids pay more attention when the grown ups cry apparently. Poor Alexander was in the kitchen just balling and that of course was the worst, we all were dreading how he'd react to his beloved Uncle Daniel leaving him. We survived the farewells with many hugs and tears (and both boys telling him to not go and we'd miss him). The kids were really sweet and mean it, they will miss him.
It touches my heart and I am so sad to watch him leave for 2 years but this sacrifice is worth it. We all support him 100% and love him so much. After he left Alex cried with me for a few minutes and then told me "mommy... just breathe... deep breaths" (we tell him that when he's upset). Soon he proclaimed he felt better and knew everyone was going to be fine and left in search of a new toy from Camden. Silly boy.
We love you Daniel.
It was a good night. We had him set apart and it was a beautiful blessing. We came home for a small birthday party for Camden (he's 2 on Monday, Aug 24) and opened presents. When it was finally time to say goodbye the kids were not paying much attention thanks to the new toys. When Daniel started crying we all started up and, well, the kids pay more attention when the grown ups cry apparently. Poor Alexander was in the kitchen just balling and that of course was the worst, we all were dreading how he'd react to his beloved Uncle Daniel leaving him. We survived the farewells with many hugs and tears (and both boys telling him to not go and we'd miss him). The kids were really sweet and mean it, they will miss him.
It touches my heart and I am so sad to watch him leave for 2 years but this sacrifice is worth it. We all support him 100% and love him so much. After he left Alex cried with me for a few minutes and then told me "mommy... just breathe... deep breaths" (we tell him that when he's upset). Soon he proclaimed he felt better and knew everyone was going to be fine and left in search of a new toy from Camden. Silly boy.
We love you Daniel.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Well, it's a plan
Ray got things worked out with his Financial Aid for Fall meaning he can keep working on his Masters in Teaching Mathematics. Yay! This is a relief, once he's done with this we are planning on trying to sell our house (hoping the market is better in 2 years) and moving to Idaho.
I saw my doctor today and got my perscription adjusted (not a big deal, it's a very low dose). She knows we are trying to get pregnant and made a deal with me. We hold off for 6 months to get things "regular" again (aka mostly my hormones) and in 6 months they will help us with fertility aka start me on clomid to get things moving. What a relief to have someone willing to help us. I'm not thrilled but figure it's for the best so it looks like no babies in the next 6 months unless God intervenes. Glad to have a plan!
The kids are doing fabulous with school, Alex has already made a friend and Ariana is a fabulous kid at school (totally friendly and awesome). Just what they needed. I'm glad I didn't keep Alex out of school, what a relief!
I saw my doctor today and got my perscription adjusted (not a big deal, it's a very low dose). She knows we are trying to get pregnant and made a deal with me. We hold off for 6 months to get things "regular" again (aka mostly my hormones) and in 6 months they will help us with fertility aka start me on clomid to get things moving. What a relief to have someone willing to help us. I'm not thrilled but figure it's for the best so it looks like no babies in the next 6 months unless God intervenes. Glad to have a plan!
The kids are doing fabulous with school, Alex has already made a friend and Ariana is a fabulous kid at school (totally friendly and awesome). Just what they needed. I'm glad I didn't keep Alex out of school, what a relief!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Busy
Goodness we've been crazy lately. Alex got a fever two weeks ago and it was crazy high. It lasted several days and we got nervous a few times but thankfully no febrile seizures. Well 2 days later Camden gets a high fever (like serious high, not just a little bit) and ended up getting croup and bronchitis... I had to take him to Urgent Care on Thursday for x-rays (ooh, how fun THAT was) and it was miserable all around. Ariana also came down with a crazy high fever but hers included vomiting everywhere, I was up to my eyeballs in sick crabby kids for TWO WEEKS. Lovely. Today is the first real day of happy, healthy kids (well, still medicated in Camden's case). Yahoo, we survived!!!
In other news Ray started a new school year today, he's really looking forward to his smaller class sizes and I think he'll do well this year. This is his 4th year teaching, crazy! Alexander starts Kindergarten on Thursday, he's in morning and Mrs. Jacoby's class (thanks to mommy getting to the school at 6 the morning of registration and waiting in line for 2 hours, man the parents are competetive!) He will have Speech and OT during school hours, it's going to be AWESOME and he can't wait. Ariana is ALSO going to start school this year! She's been accepted the Preschool despite the fact that she's not some Spanish speaking child (don't get me started about THAT... they are priority over her and that ticked me off). Anyways, she also will be at the same school as Alexander and the same time. I am so looking forward to being with Camden even if it kills me to send her to school early like that. Oh well, it's only half day this year right?
In my own personal stuff I'm doing well, going to see the dr again next Tuesday and the medicine is working well. Might get it tweaked a little. Also going to talk to them about our fertility problems, we've had problems in the past that always corrected themselves but we've been trying to get pregnant 14 months now so I need to bring it up and see if they can help us. Ironic really, Alex took so long and here we are again. At least I know we *can* get pregnant right? :) Ha ha... three kids later.
Anyways, that's what is going on. Lots of doctor appts coming up soon and fighting insurance to get that juice Alex needs again. I had to call and file a grievance with my insurance today to fight them on it, they've denied it twice and I'll be darned if I'm going to roll over and let them get away with it!!
Please pray with us that the insurance will give us what we need, this is SO rediculous!
In other news Ray started a new school year today, he's really looking forward to his smaller class sizes and I think he'll do well this year. This is his 4th year teaching, crazy! Alexander starts Kindergarten on Thursday, he's in morning and Mrs. Jacoby's class (thanks to mommy getting to the school at 6 the morning of registration and waiting in line for 2 hours, man the parents are competetive!) He will have Speech and OT during school hours, it's going to be AWESOME and he can't wait. Ariana is ALSO going to start school this year! She's been accepted the Preschool despite the fact that she's not some Spanish speaking child (don't get me started about THAT... they are priority over her and that ticked me off). Anyways, she also will be at the same school as Alexander and the same time. I am so looking forward to being with Camden even if it kills me to send her to school early like that. Oh well, it's only half day this year right?
In my own personal stuff I'm doing well, going to see the dr again next Tuesday and the medicine is working well. Might get it tweaked a little. Also going to talk to them about our fertility problems, we've had problems in the past that always corrected themselves but we've been trying to get pregnant 14 months now so I need to bring it up and see if they can help us. Ironic really, Alex took so long and here we are again. At least I know we *can* get pregnant right? :) Ha ha... three kids later.
Anyways, that's what is going on. Lots of doctor appts coming up soon and fighting insurance to get that juice Alex needs again. I had to call and file a grievance with my insurance today to fight them on it, they've denied it twice and I'll be darned if I'm going to roll over and let them get away with it!!
Please pray with us that the insurance will give us what we need, this is SO rediculous!
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